Wonder of it All

Thanks to Phil’s site, I’ve been listening to my MP3 player on shuffle for the last about hour, and because I did that I heard this song–this wonderful, awesome, amazing song by Monday Morning!

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This is such an amazing song, and so meaningful for me- It really hits home.

What i’ve seen and where i’ve been
What’s breaking out and breaking in
Who i love and i despise
Melting into compromise
How i’ve changed and how i’ve learned
Becoming less becoming more

I’ve regressed so much, and yet I’ve grown so much through this past year. With the past that I haven’t quite put in the past yet, it’s been quite an experience for me and someone who I care deeply about. Circumstances have left us as much less than friends, but it still leaves me wondering “where I’ll be next year.” Will I have the strength to become a friend again? But then again, perhaps it will take even more strength to remain unassociated, to remain people who were once acquainted. For now, it looks like God is giving me the strength for the latter or rather, he’s not giving me the strength, but asking me to rely on his strength.

Anon