Still Haven’t Found What I’m “Looking For”

“And she’s looking for a husband” – Caedmon

“I’m not really looking per se” – Me

“Yes you are!” – Caedmon

There were probably other things said in the midst of it, but I couldn’t hear it over the intense, loud shade of red that my face was turning. Some six year old children do not know proper dinner conversation etiquette. Although the outburst was incredibly hilarious, and only partially true, it was quite thought-provoking. It was partially true because, yeah, I do want to get married. I don’t hide the fact that my desire in life is to be a wife and mother. However, “looking for” implies actively searching, which I’m not… I think. In fact, I’ve been quite good about not initiating conversations with guys lately.  In conversations where my nephew is involved, the idea of me getting married is brought up more by him than by me. He pretty much thinks that I should get married because I’m old and I should marry someone in New York that way he can come visit and play. lol. Those are solid reasons to get married, right? Well, it doesn’t matter the reasons why he says the things he says. The fact is, that I probably concern myself with the desire for a husband more than I should. Proverbs 4:25 says “Let thine eyes look right on, and let thine eyelids look straight before thee” (it’s a King James sort of day). If my eyes are fixed on Jesus, then it would be much more difficult for someone to confuse where I am looking or what I am looking for… even a 6 year old, I think, would see clearly where my gaze was set. Lord, let my eyes be set on You, and You alone.


August 20, 2010 at 9:40 pm 2 comments

Bring Me Back

Sometimes life gets confusing and difficult, but the Lord is always faithful to bring me back to Christ. With little reminders he ushers me into his arms and gives me overwhelming peace and security. Nothing short of truth could bring me back from the irrational thoughts I’ve been having as of late, and that truth that was presented to me was that of Colassians 3.  Perhaps today this truth will set you free from whatever demons have been pursuing you:

1Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your[a] life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

5Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.[b] 7You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. 8But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. 9Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices 10and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. 11Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

12Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

15Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. 17And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.”

God bless!

June 2, 2009 at 2:20 pm Leave a comment

New Blog

I needed a new start to this blogging thing. I let this one get a little bit out of control as far as what I put on here. Rather than bring it back to what it should be, I just started a new blog a couple doors down. My new blog is at Hope to see ya around! God bless!

January 26, 2009 at 9:52 pm Leave a comment

Perfect Love by The O.C. Supertones

Do you need someone?
Are you like me?
Do you fall apart?
You’re just like me.

Have there been times?
You felt so low?
Don’t you forget
You’re not alone

Angels are standing by your bed
Jesus is watching over you
He’ll never leave that’s what he said
Is that what you want ’cause I know I do

I want love love love
I want perfect love. (X3)

Well I pretend
I just need me
I seem so strong
But it’s make believe

’cause I’ve seen love fail
I’ve been betrayed
I’ve seen love pass
I’ve seen love fade

But I know that God is not that way
He doesn’t change from day to day
He doesn’t fail he doesn’t leave
And I want that so desperately


He loves broken hearts
Faith like a child
And now here I come
With just a broken heart
And faith like a child

I want love love love
I want perfect love.
I want love love love
I want perfect love.
Will someone tell me where to find
Some place to ease my troubled mind (X2)

I want love love love
I want perfect love.

November 7, 2008 at 5:55 pm Leave a comment

This is the Way by Last Tuesday

This is the way I (no)
This is the way we work it out
It’s not about you
It’s not about me
This is the new beginning
This is the day we,
This is the start of what we said,
We thought was wrong was with,
The way we do things,
Let’s meet…
every chance we get

Take take take take one final look
Make make make make this one to
Take our time we will get there
This house is not our home.

Can we talk about it
Can we see what everybody thinks
I know that,
You know that,
We won’t
always agree
On how to start from
Where we left off with our Resolve
But we must move
Move on now
this is our new beginning

This is the way we wanted it to be…
(With every day)
This is the way we wanted it to be…
(With every breath)
This is the way we wanted it to be..


I love what O.C. Supertones Radio at introduces me to 😀

November 7, 2008 at 2:17 am Leave a comment

Last Night’s Prayer

Last night was tough for me… I don’t know what it was about it, but I found myself feeling lonelier than I have felt in quite some time. I suppose I was just coming off of a high from the previous two days which held a David Crowder Band concert, babysitting, baking, voting, bible study and chill time with Brandon and his brother and sister. Compared to those activities, yesterday felt so empty. I was so lost at the end of the night, and even my daily reading didn’t fill the emptiness I was feeling. My mind was allowed to wander, and though I know that God needs to be enough, my heart longed for something else. The prayer that came from my lips last night was of complete selfishness. And while God does give good gifts to his children, I regret praying it. The moments I spent praying it and the minutes that followed meditating on what I prayed could have been used much more effectively for God’s glory. If I ask for something out of wrong motives, it’s a wasted prayer… especially when there is so much that I ought to pray for that gets neglected.

November 6, 2008 at 2:20 pm 1 comment

Your Love is Strong

Heavenly Father, you always amaze me
Let your kingdom come in my world and in my life
Give me the food I need to live through today
And forgive me as I forgive the people that wrong me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window the birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune or out of place
I walk to the meadow and stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl on her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

The kingdom of the heavens is now advancing
Invade my heart, invade this broken town
The kingdom of the Heavens is buried treasure
Would you sell yourself to buy the one you’ve found?

Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

Our God in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us weary sinners
Keep us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons


In view of God’s great love for us, should we not also show him love? And how then shall we love? By words alone or by extravagant gifts? Certainly not! In John 14:21, Jesus says, “Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.” Let us not be dead in action; instead let us love God by obeying his commands. Have you been obedient today?

November 6, 2008 at 1:38 am 2 comments

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