So, today is Friday! Hurray for the weekend! My sister and her family are coming to visit this weekend from Wisconsin, so I get to see 2 very cute little boys and one absolutely adorable little girl… and then their parents whom I love! I’m gonna give soooo many hugs this weekend! They’re coming because they decided they were going to visit in April and they chose this weekend because tomorrow is my birthday. As of tomorrow night, I will no longer be a teenager, but I’ll still be a child ^_^ (I never plan on changing that). Tonight will be my hanging out time though, as we have 2 softball games and have to finish up one we began on Wednesday. I’m hoping we come away with 3 wins. I also have a couple games on Sunday too, so my family that is visiting will be leaving for home before I return from them.
lalala… I can’t put a coherent thought together right now. It’s probably because it’s sort of early and I’m not good at multi-tasking. Anyway, I think I’ll turn my music off and try to write a little something for y’all.
You are beautiful, beautiful
More beautiful than I have ever seen
Wonderful, wonderful
More than this life that you give to me
I am yours, I am yours
Every day I’ll learn to seek your face
You are Lord, you are Lord
Nothing else will ever take your place
And I’ll sing to you
Because you’ve given me this voice
And I’ll lift you up
Your love gives me no other choice
Win or lose, Lord
I’m always in your hands
To me it’s all the same
And I’ll give glory to your name
With every breath I breathe
Your joy will never leave
And you are beautiful
And I love you
I’m not sure how the rest of that song goes, but I can assure you that it’s pretty rocking awesome. I so need to learn to play an instrument so that I can write music to some of this stuff.
Give me the strength to stay on my knees
No sooner do I stand than I fall on my sword
I don’t mean to commit suicide
And somehow I don’t think “I tried”
Will cut it when I’m face to face with a king
My nights end with no conversation
Prayers go unanswered that haven’t been asked
Hands were not made to kill my brother
And lips to murder another
When all you asked for was my devotion
I’m only well when I’m on my knees
I’m only well when your name’s on my lips
And if complacency tempts me to stand
Put weight on my shoulders to keep me well
Praying in your glory
Praying in your glory
I’m so blessed to have people advise me and encourage me. So many people have helped me more than words can describe and I just am so thankful that God has placed these people in my life. Now that they’ve allowed God to speak through them, I’m gonna be talking with the Big Man himself, and He’s gonna take me through the procedure that gives him the glory.
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This is a song that I feel can be applied to my situation somewhat. Hate was not a part of my situation, but I feel that the last verse of this song is a good thing to keep in mind.
Hope Has A Way - Scott Krippayne
Hey you, with your fist balled up tight
Against your brother
Hey you, with the hate in your heart
For anotherIt’s no suprise that you struggle inside
Playing tug-o-war with your stubborn pride
Remember
Hope has a way
Of breaking thorugh walls
Of bridging the gap between us all
There isn’t a problem
Too great or too small
Hope has a way, hope has a way
How come we throw words like stones
Against each other
And how long before we begin
To love one another
Haven’t we learned from
The mistakes we’ve made
That without forgiveness
There is no change, but
Let’s not forget that what binds us is greater
Than anything that keeps us apart
We’re all the children of the same loving Father
Let us stand together serving heart to heart
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Sometimes girls are rockin’ awesome on a ukulele… this is one of those times
^_^ unlike my happy todays of the past, today’s happy today is not because it has been some increment of months, but is because I’m super stoked about seeing one of my bestest friends of the whole wide world! He’s coming home from college, and I get dibs! haha! ^_^ But yeah, I’ve got lots of important stuff to talk to him about so, if you read this I would appreciate it if you would pray for us. Pray that God would give him words and wisdom to speak to me and that I would receive it well. Also, if you would pray that we would just enjoy the time we get to spend together, I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you!
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Also, I love the way Rhett and Link interact and react
This is what God had for me last night… afternoon… whatever
Isaiah 40:29-31
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary , and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew thier strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
Isaiah 42:16
“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are things I will do; I will not forsake them.”
I feel like Isaiah was talking about me here, even though he was talking about Israel. I think I’ve been blind these last several years, and I’ve been taking the same paths and not getting anywhere benefitial. But now, God is leading me along those unfamiliar paths that are taking me straight to Him. He’s not going to let me stumble. If I hold onto his hand, there’s nothing that can make me fall.
There’s also a bumper sticker on facebook that says this: “A woman’s heart should be so lost in God that a man needs to seek Him in order to find her.” I think I need to follow this path. If I’m obsessing over a young man, I’m never going to have the relationship that God wants for me. Instead I’ve got to invest myself completely in God, and then, if God has someone for me, he’ll find me when the time is right. I love God. Why have I wasted so much time throwing my affection elsewhere? Anyway, God has blessed me with a few amazing friends through this rough patch of my life, and I’m thankful for all of them. And for the record, Charlie (even though you don’t read my blog), God has used you so much to encourage me and to grow me in Him, and I want to thank you. Thank you for letting God use you. I certainly don’t look forward to the day when circumstances lead us away from one another, but it’ll be ok, because we’ll meet again in heaven. I love you, Charlie. I hope we’ll always be good friends.
Can you hear me in the whisper
Not the earthquake, fire or wind
But I’m softly speaking to you
If you’ll only let me in
Can you see me in their faces
They need to know me more
My mercy sends you to them
Teach them what their mouth is for
If my people will pray
If my people will seek my face
If my people will turn
Turn from their wicked ways
If my people will pray
If my people will find humility
If my people will pray
They’ll be forgiven
I spoke to Moses through a burning bush
And Adam when the world was new
I spoke to Jacob as an angel
And I’m speaking now to you
If my people will pray
If my people will seek my face
If my people will turn
Turn from their wicked ways
If my people will pray
If my people will find humility
If my people will pray
They’ll be forgiven
I’m scared to choose to fall out of love
Because I’d be open to more scars
My heart would choose to chase the boys
With God, good looks and cars
I don’t want to be a flirt
But my hearts conditioned so
That any eligible bachelor
Is one I want to know
I’ve trapped myself in a rotten pit
Of misery and unwarranted doubt
So all I can do is throw my hands up
And scream God please help me out!!!!!!!
Just 2 years ago
I was on top of the world
And nothing underneath could make me blue
And every smile of mine
You were the reason behind it
And I couldn’t believe this love so true was mine
I remember falling asleep in your arms
Asking my Lord for everything wonderful
Give me wisdom
Give me strength
Give me perseverance
To make it through these days
Give me hope
Give me truth
But more than anything
Just give me you
6 months ago he left me crying
On my doorstep saying
He didn’t love me and he didn’t care
And though my tears could compete with oceans
You never left my side
As I cried out in despair to you
I remember falling asleep in your arms
Asking my Lord for everything wonderful
Give me wisdom
Give me strength
Give me perseverance
To make it through these days
Give me hope
Give me truth
But more than anything
Just give me you
I woke up this morning
Your fragrance on my pillowcase
From where you held me last night
And though I don’t remember you coming
I know you’ll never leave
And if you’re my only lover it will be alright with me
I remember falling asleep in your arms
Asking my Lord for everything wonderful
Give me wisdom
Give me strength
Give me perseverance
To make it through these days
Give me hope
Give me truth
But more than anything
Just give me you
And if 10 years from now
Your love is all I have
Well Jesus, that is more than enough
To strengthen me
To fill me up
To live out every day in you
I hope we’ll always be good friends.