So, today is Friday! Hurray for the weekend! My sister and her family are coming to visit this weekend from Wisconsin, so I get to see 2 very cute little boys and one absolutely adorable little girl… and then their parents whom I love! I’m gonna give soooo many hugs this weekend! They’re coming because they decided they were going to visit in April and they chose this weekend because tomorrow is my birthday. As of tomorrow night, I will no longer be a teenager, but I’ll still be a child ^_^ (I never plan on changing that). Tonight will be my hanging out time though, as we have 2 softball games and have to finish up one we began on Wednesday. I’m hoping we come away with 3 wins. I also have a couple games on Sunday too, so my family that is visiting will be leaving for home before I return from them.
lalala… I can’t put a coherent thought together right now. It’s probably because it’s sort of early and I’m not good at multi-tasking. Anyway, I think I’ll turn my music off and try to write a little something for y’all.
You are beautiful, beautiful
More beautiful than I have ever seen
Wonderful, wonderful
More than this life that you give to me
I am yours, I am yours
Every day I’ll learn to seek your face
You are Lord, you are Lord
Nothing else will ever take your place
And I’ll sing to you
Because you’ve given me this voice
And I’ll lift you up
Your love gives me no other choice
Win or lose, Lord
I’m always in your hands
To me it’s all the same
And I’ll give glory to your name
With every breath I breathe
Your joy will never leave
And you are beautiful
And I love you
I’m not sure how the rest of that song goes, but I can assure you that it’s pretty rocking awesome. I so need to learn to play an instrument so that I can write music to some of this stuff.
Give me the strength to stay on my knees
No sooner do I stand than I fall on my sword
I don’t mean to commit suicide
And somehow I don’t think “I tried”
Will cut it when I’m face to face with a king
My nights end with no conversation
Prayers go unanswered that haven’t been asked
Hands were not made to kill my brother
And lips to murder another
When all you asked for was my devotion
I’m only well when I’m on my knees
I’m only well when your name’s on my lips
And if complacency tempts me to stand
Put weight on my shoulders to keep me well
Praying in your glory
Praying in your glory
I’m so blessed to have people advise me and encourage me. So many people have helped me more than words can describe and I just am so thankful that God has placed these people in my life. Now that they’ve allowed God to speak through them, I’m gonna be talking with the Big Man himself, and He’s gonna take me through the procedure that gives him the glory.
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This is a song that I feel can be applied to my situation somewhat. Hate was not a part of my situation, but I feel that the last verse of this song is a good thing to keep in mind.
Hope Has A Way - Scott Krippayne
Hey you, with your fist balled up tight
Against your brother
Hey you, with the hate in your heart
For anotherIt’s no suprise that you struggle inside
Playing tug-o-war with your stubborn pride
Remember
Hope has a way
Of breaking thorugh walls
Of bridging the gap between us all
There isn’t a problem
Too great or too small
Hope has a way, hope has a way
How come we throw words like stones
Against each other
And how long before we begin
To love one another
Haven’t we learned from
The mistakes we’ve made
That without forgiveness
There is no change, but
Let’s not forget that what binds us is greater
Than anything that keeps us apart
We’re all the children of the same loving Father
Let us stand together serving heart to heart
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Sometimes girls are rockin’ awesome on a ukulele… this is one of those times
^_^ unlike my happy todays of the past, today’s happy today is not because it has been some increment of months, but is because I’m super stoked about seeing one of my bestest friends of the whole wide world! He’s coming home from college, and I get dibs! haha! ^_^ But yeah, I’ve got lots of important stuff to talk to him about so, if you read this I would appreciate it if you would pray for us. Pray that God would give him words and wisdom to speak to me and that I would receive it well. Also, if you would pray that we would just enjoy the time we get to spend together, I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you!
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Also, I love the way Rhett and Link interact and react
I respect you for who you are
Not for how you do
I respect that you have opinions
Lord knows I have them too
I’m sorry that I have argued
When there was no right or wrong
I was blind to how you received it
I should have seen it all along
When you’d get angry I didn’t know
That you felt disrespected
Or when I ran off with other friends
That you would feel neglected
I’m sorry I messed us up
To the point we’re not together
I just wish I could make amends
And show you respect forever
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I just began reading the book “For Women Only” and just from reading the first few pages, I have a completely new view of men’s anger. I never knew that when I would argue my opinion so adamantly that it would make someone feel disrespected. I wonder if I had known this sooner if I could have saved a relationship. It’s ok though, God’s got all of me and I need all of Him, so I’ll just seek Him and if I find myself in a relationship again I’ll know how to better respect my partner.
What was right about last night?
The stars, the moon, the evening light?
Was it the chance that brought us to sight
Of a fallen world that seemed alright?
The moon shone bright with a million stars
And God brought near what seemed so far
And revealed to me what good friends are
As we watched the sky within your car
The radio played a familiar song
As you and I just sang along
We knew right then where we belong
Never having felt His love so strong
What was right about last night
Wasn’t the moon and stars so bright
It’s not the way you held me tight
Nor your eyes reflecting the light
But if you were gone and I alone
I wouldn’t miss your cologne
Because in that moment, I was shown
I’ll always be built on the cornerstone
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Hurray for inspiration! The inspiration for this poem was a absolutely gorgeous night with a clear sky and about a million stars. When I see a beautiful sky like that I just have to tell my friends, so I called my friend Michael, and it turned out that he was already outside watchinig them. So, the truth of this poem ends at line 7! haha! Oh well. I decided to turn it into a slightly romantic poem, but really it’s about how even if I was alone, I would still have God. And what’s better than that?
This is what God had for me last night… afternoon… whatever
Isaiah 40:29-31
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary , and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew thier strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
Isaiah 42:16
“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are things I will do; I will not forsake them.”
I feel like Isaiah was talking about me here, even though he was talking about Israel. I think I’ve been blind these last several years, and I’ve been taking the same paths and not getting anywhere benefitial. But now, God is leading me along those unfamiliar paths that are taking me straight to Him. He’s not going to let me stumble. If I hold onto his hand, there’s nothing that can make me fall.
There’s also a bumper sticker on facebook that says this: “A woman’s heart should be so lost in God that a man needs to seek Him in order to find her.” I think I need to follow this path. If I’m obsessing over a young man, I’m never going to have the relationship that God wants for me. Instead I’ve got to invest myself completely in God, and then, if God has someone for me, he’ll find me when the time is right. I love God. Why have I wasted so much time throwing my affection elsewhere? Anyway, God has blessed me with a few amazing friends through this rough patch of my life, and I’m thankful for all of them. And for the record, Charlie (even though you don’t read my blog), God has used you so much to encourage me and to grow me in Him, and I want to thank you. Thank you for letting God use you. I certainly don’t look forward to the day when circumstances lead us away from one another, but it’ll be ok, because we’ll meet again in heaven. I love you, Charlie. I hope we’ll always be good friends.
Deception guides true feelings arye
Where darkness clouds the broken lives
And pain and hurt are amplified
In open wounds and tearful cries
So very empty, so very lost
Those who sin at highest cost
If only they knew the joy you give
To see your love and truly live
THis world could be so beautiful
If they’d open up thier souls
Broken lives can be renewed
Once thier actions have been reviewed
And they live for the only One
Jesus Christ, God’s true Son.
…if not for making you meet totally awesome, random, amazing softball players who encourage you to go to Cedarville? So, this is pretty rockin awesome, and if this isn’t a sign, I don’t know what is. I was reading my bible in the hall of our hotel and a girl from another softball comes up and introduces herself because she saw me reading. As it would turn out, we were reading the same Chapter of the same Book of the bible! Isaiah 6! (which, by the way, is a pretty sweet band. If you ever get the chance to check them out I highly recommend it - though you’re not likely to find their music in stores anywhere) So anyway, it turns out she plays for Cedarville University in Ohio and they need catchers. I’m a catcher, though not as good as the other 2 on my team, but I’m confident in my abilities. I’m thinking it would be pretty sweet to go to a Christian college and ALSO get to play softball there. The only real issue I’d have with going would be fear of debt. Debt is not a good thing in my opinion, but if it’s God’s will for me to go there, God will provide. God’s pretty sweet… I like the ways he has me meet people!
Also, I will not be on much for the next 2 weeks as I am in Florida with my softball team for Spring training and I don’t own a laptop… I’ll only be able to get on when on of my teammates let me borrow thier’s. However, I love all my blog friends very dearly, and I hope that you’ll allow me to continue visiting your sites when I return from my Sabatical.
Also, Also:
Turbulance
Flying high
Gliding with ease
A million miles an hour
And nothing can shake me
As I soar through the sky
But wait
There’s a bump
A rumble and rock
But at 30,000 feet
A man couldn’t knock
This turbulance shakes me
Around and about
Where’s the security
Replaced by this doubt
I’m not shaking outside
I’m shaking within
You’re calling me away
From this life of sin
Your turbulance shakes me
From the sky that I hide in
I’m falling down into
The God I confide in
So, the truth of this poem ends at line 7! haha! Oh well. I decided to turn it into a slightly romantic poem, but really it’s about how even if I was alone, I would still have God. And what’s better than that?