Archive for November, 2007

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Interpret This

November 29, 2007

I had a dream last night, and I was confused about it. Perhaps someone out there can make heads or tails of it.

In my dream, I was sitting with a group of friends in the second floor of a house watching music videos and just hanging out in general. I decided to play one called “letters” that I had apparently seen before and thought was really good. I didn’t watch the beginning of it because I was laying down in a chair with my head on my boyfriend’s chest who was in the chair next to me, and so I couldn’t see the movie. We were holding hands, but he had had his other hand gently caressing my face. I enjoyed it, but I couldn’t breathe so I tried moving my head to a different position, but his hand prevented me from moving, almost as if he was suffocating me. Finally, I moved his hand so I could turn my head and breathe and also see the video. There was no sound coming from the video though, so I supposed it was just a really long introduction. In the video there’s a young girl, maybe 7 years old or so, and she’s being kidnapped. She is dragged down the hallway by her feet, and she just lays there. She’s scared, but she doesn’t scream or cry. I missed the next part of the video because my boyfriend decided to get up. He stood up and went and sat at the top of the stairs by himself and just looked at me. I wanted to go over there with him, but I didn’t want to miss the video because I knew something really terrible was going to happen in it that would make me emotional, so I stayed in my chair and continued to watch. I saw the mother of the 7 year old (she’s been rescued or escaped somehow) and they’re standing in the doorway of her little sister’s (maybe 4 years old). There’s a large black, not African or Indian or having anything to do with race, just pure black in color, woman with firey red curly hair and laying on the little girl’s bed with the sleeping, frail-looking child in her arms. The woman is crying. Apparently the mother can’t see the woman, but the 7 yr. old can. The woman is, I think, the one who tried to kidnap her. The girl says something along the lines of “Mom, I’m worried about Pisces (her sister).” She didn’t want to leave her little sister, but her mom took her to bed and I remember the 7 yr. old wasn’t dressed for bed. She was wearing a dress and had a checkered bow in her hair. The video ended with the mom going into a play room (I think) and saying “I just know I’ll see something.” But she doesn’t see anyone in there. There is however a large box, big enough for someone to hide behind, but the mom doesn’t investigate. The credits rolled. I thought it odd that there was no music at all, and then I woke up.

So that’s my dream. Anyone got an explanation for it?

Also, I apologize that the whole thing is just one big mass… I wasn’t sure where paragraphs should go or even if they should go anywhere in it.

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Push Up Party

November 28, 2007

You wish you were awesome like Downhere!

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Gone Are the Days

November 27, 2007

I’m broken… the life I’ve had until now is ruined… it’s a waste. I need a new one.

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Surprised

November 24, 2007

I would be surprised if my Lord came back today
I don’t know what he’d think of me if he looked my way
Would he see me as I see myself–broken, lost, confused
Or perhaps he would see me as less; saying his son, I’ve abused
Would I be surprised if he pushed me off the cloud
Ashamed of who I’ve been because I didn’t live out loud
Could he even take my hand or my heart that’s felt such sorrow
Would he restore me to him, if the Lord came back tomorrow
Lord, will you save me from who I’ve been, show me the way that’s true
Lord, I know without your help, there’s nothing I can do

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Just Give Me You

November 22, 2007

Just 2 years ago
I was on top of the world
And nothing underneath could make me blue
And every smile of mine
You were the reason behind it
And I couldn’t believe this love so true was mine

I remember falling asleep in your arms
Asking my Lord for everything wonderful
Give me wisdom
Give me strength
Give me perseverance
To make it through these days
Give me hope
Give me truth
But more than anything
Just give me you

6 months ago he left me crying
On my doorstep saying
He didn’t love me and he didn’t care
And though my tears could compete with oceans
You never left my side
As I cried out in despair to you

I remember falling asleep in your arms
Asking my Lord for everything wonderful
Give me wisdom
Give me strength
Give me perseverance
To make it through these days
Give me hope
Give me truth
But more than anything
Just give me you

I woke up this morning
Your fragrance on my pillowcase
From where you held me last night
And though I don’t remember you coming
I know you’ll never leave
And if you’re my only lover it will be alright with me

I remember falling asleep in your arms
Asking my Lord for everything wonderful
Give me wisdom
Give me strength
Give me perseverance
To make it through these days
Give me hope
Give me truth
But more than anything
Just give me you

And if 10 years from now
Your love is all I have
Well Jesus, that is more than enough
To strengthen me
To fill me up
To live out every day in you

Oh just give me you

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Test Drive

November 20, 2007

I had this funny feeling
That my first car would be my last
I’d either keep you forever
Or learn to walk really fast
When you broke down on me
You shattered my heart
And I’m without a ride
Because your engine won’t start

Now I’m test driving the idea
Of letting you go
And I’m making sure it runs
So I won’t need a tow
Last time I drove it too fast
Couldn’t stop before the light–I crashed
It landed me in a body cast
And I’ve been praying through the night
Hoping everything will be alright

Yeah, I’m stuck without a car that runs
Bank says I’m in the red
My friend’s got a beat up truck
The options pound in my head
But I can’t forget the day we met
Your interior none could beat
And that’s when I thought to myself
I only want to warm your seats

Now I’m test driving the idea
Of letting you go
And I’m making sure it runs
So I won’t need a tow
Last time I drove it too fast
Couldn’t stop before the light–I crashed
It landed me in a body cast
And I’ve been praying through the night
Hoping everything will be alright

Yeah you broke down on me
Pretended you didn’t know my touch
Yeah and now the winter cold
Has frozen your doors shut–so tightly shut
Yeah I gotta let you go
Gotta, gotta, gotta let you go

Now I’m test driving the idea
Of letting you go
And I’m making sure it runs
So I won’t need a tow
Last time I drove it too fast
Couldn’t stop before the light–I crashed
It landed me in a body cast
And I’ve been praying through the night
Hoping everything will be alright

When you’re gone everything will be alright

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I like this… a lot. I don’t know why. This all came out of me telling my friend “I’m test driving the idea” and then I thought it would be good for a song or poem. So, what do y’all think?

Anon

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This is SOOOO Funny!

November 19, 2007

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Why do I pray

November 17, 2007

Why do I pray for you
To be blessed beyond belief
Why do I pray for you
When it keeps me from relief
Why do I pray for you
I don’t know if I should
Why do I pray for you
When I’m sure that others would

When God makes you wonderful
It’s so hard to calm me
But I pray the He continues
If He will gain the glory
When God makes you wonderful
It’s so hard to break free
Because when you’re in love with Him
His love is all I see

Why do I pray for you
To be blessed beyond belief
Why do I pray for you
When it keeps me from relief
Why do I pray for you
I don’t know if I should
Why do I pray for you
When I’m sure that others would

And I know because He’s glorified
Praying for you is right
And when I see Him in his glory
I’ll know it’s worth the fight
And I know because He’s glorified
I will just pray all the more
And when God makes you perfect
That’s what my tears are for

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Holly

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Quote

November 15, 2007

T : “Is it everything you hoped and dreamed?”

H: “Nope… all my hopes and dreams are gone!”

L : “Yeah, model train shows will do that to you.”

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Should I Call My Heart Jacob

November 10, 2007

Should I call my heart Jacob
Does it so deceive my mind
Am I wishing for love
With a hope that is blind

Should I call my heart Jacob
Disguised to be blessed
Seeking approval
But as another, dressed

Jacob, Jacob, oh my heart
A wellspring of life, but full of deceit
When will this trickery end
That I may no longer feel the pain of defeat

Should I call my heart Jacob
If it’s strong willed and stubborn
Chasing its desires
but withheld what it earned

Should I call my heart Jacob
Did it feed me with lies
Saying there’s still hope he loves
Though actions say otherwise

Jacob, Jacob, oh my heart
A wellspring of life, but full of deceit
When will this trickery end
That I may no longer feel the pain of defeat

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Seriously though… Jacob was pretty cool, despite his deceptions.

Anon